life lessons

  • What are you most proud of? That I don’t see life as a miserable, gruelling concept. That I don’t see life as something forced onto me. That I still manage to find the light, the crack in the sidewalk to sprout from.  How, even through convoluted grief and anger at years lost to trauma and heartbreaks of…

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  • Forever, ever?

    We’re a forever oriented species. We think that if something can stand the test of time (which is an oxymoron considering time is indefinite), then it means something, it’s worthy of our attention. Relationships, jobs, happiness-the closer we aim to “forever,” the more it holds significance. We are obsessed with endings in this weird, meta…

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  • One day you’re 10, and you’re waking up to the wet wilderness, putting on your dirt streaked flip flops to pick wild raspberries for morning pancakes. The foam soles bend around the gravel road, and you can feel every single pebble like the princess and the pea except you’re the king, the king of this…

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  • Faculty of Existence

    Before I turned 18, I might as well have not existed.  My teenaged years were a stale, stagnant fog. I was a stringed puppet, a shell of the raw, confident aura teenagers possess. I was puppeteered by my parents, and with glee-I knew no better but to impress them dutifully. My days were filled with…

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  • Eternal Unrest.

    When death stretches your eyelids,so tight you don’t have time to rewind,to have tea with your demons,to repent and regret and relinquish yourself, they stay rigoured,a forced awakening of your last moments.  Only a life of sin would force your eyes open upon death, as if to say,“watch yourself burn.”   An afterlife of eternal unrest,reserved…

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  • the tradeoff for maturity.

    I gave up all my childhood relics too early. I refused my dolls, my stuffed animals, my notebooks full of novel ideas, to swallow maturity instead.  I was sooner than ready ushered into adulthood, to wear the mark of maturity ripe on my flat chest. Every “you’re so mature” proclaimed from an adult singed it deeper into my flesh. The…

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  • THE FINAL EXAM

    If not for your sweet curves and sugar lips, how would I know bitterness?If not for your striking grit, how would I know timidity? If not for your heavy and boundless laughs, how would I know silence? 

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  • After Death

    How strange it is, to watch someone’s face sparkle and dance with life on a Monday, and for it to be gone by Tuesday. How strange it is,for our bodies to decay, to expire,yet leave behind an undeniablepresence if we’re open to it. How strange it is to look into your eyes merely through a…

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  • I’m a child of the hot July sun. I couldn’t wait to peel a wet bathing suit off my taut skin after a swim. I wanted that first feeling of realizing the sun was still out at 9pm, knowing the season had just begun and anything was possible. I wanted blackened feet from being barefoot…

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  • For a long time, I prided myself on being a productive person. I used my spare time efficiently, writing to-do lists and finishing every task on them. I managed my time well and left no room for error. Unfortunately, I’m human, and so errors would come up, and when they would, I would internally combust.…

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